Have you faced death, and then lived? It’s a wonderful, wonderful experience, but not one I’d wish for you.
Yesterday I celebrated being Cancer Free for 5 years with red velvet cupcakes from Costco and coffee made just the way I like it. Life is good…so good.
Feeling emotional, I was determined to let all that was in my heart pour out onto the page. That’s what I call therapy, but there was too much in my heart. I couldn’t express myself. Hmmm …a writer without words. Can’t have that. So, I decided to list everything I was grateful for. Screw grammar – just get the ideas out. Again…couldn’t do it. Hmmm. Finally, I decided to make a list of the top things I’m grateful for. (Warning: on the sappy side.)
I am most grateful for my:
- Children and grandchildren who I cherish.
- Husband who stood by me in the darkest of hours, and every day makes me feel loved beyond measure.
- Siblings who may live far away, but are always close in my heart.
- Friends who bring me companionship and joy.
- Writing that lets me, be me.
The ‘writer me’ says I’ve left too much out, but the ‘cerebral me’ says you got the gist of it. So maybe I’ll settle for my little list, for now, and revisit it later.
The ‘pain in the ass – won’t keep her mouth shut me’ says, “Wait a minute. What happened to God and things?” Indeed, what happened? I stopped and thought about that. They didn’t make the list.
My experience of God is embedded in the love of all five. And things, well they don’t fit in this list. Don’t get me wrong, I like things, but they don’t fit on this list.
Five years ago I promised myself if I got a second chance in life I’d do a better job of it, put relationships first and remember that life is all about love. I wanted to have everything I did reflect my beliefs. I changed a lot of things in my life, but sometimes I stray from my promise and get caught up in things that really don’t matter. (Twitter anyone?)
My plan for the next five is to keep working on my promise. But as imperfect as I am, I am ever so thankful to be alive. I feel blessed.
What’s on your Grateful 5 list? Any thoughts?
Note: The picture is the view I have on my daily walk.